It's easy to trace back the synchronicities that guided me into this moment...
About 12 years ago, I attended a “White Tantra” event led by a Spanish guy who wore a hair bandana & black eyeliner. The room was full, he guide us through breathwork as drums were playing. I danced to the rhythm of the drums until I entered a trace state. My head whirled, and my long hair drew circles in the air for an EXTENDED amount of time. Finally, the music stopped, after savasana when he guided us back my body erected, but my head DID NOT! I lifted my head with my hands, while everyone was in silence my sister & I were uncontrollably laughing, there was no way I could sustain my head above my body. 🤣
I kept receiving this tantric teacher's newsletter for a while, somehow there was shame & guilt when it would show up in my mailbox, and as a regular person growing up in a society that shames sexuality, I did not pursue the curiosity that originally led me to that workshop.
Over the years while attending trainings rooted in tantra/yoga philosophy, I simply ignored the word Tantra due to a lack of understanding of what tantra actually is.
In my year of pleasure at 28, I learned to define pleasure in my body & expanded the meaning of it, releasing the judgment I had towards it, but even then I was still finding limitations in the people around me while expressing my persistent curiosity about a deeper intimacy with myself and others.
Throughout the pandemic, I found enough SS teachers, I attended their free workshops until I found the teacher who truly resonated with me @llenadevida_sajeeva. It took a few more synchronicities before I made my final decision, to learn under a teacher & finally tap into the sacredness of sexuality. Contrary to what you might be thinking, this led me to the conscious decision to keep my sexual energy to myself, intentional celibacy.
My deepest desire is to explore the energy of creation, the path of love, and the path of union with the ultimate, where all possibilities exist.
Sacred Sexuality for me, has meant choosing Breathe, Love & Consciousness as a path of living in Union with the Divine.
I would like to honor & acknowledge that I am a settler on the traditional, ancestral and unceded territory of the Coast Salish peoples–Sḵwx̱wú7mesh (Squamish), Stó:lō and Səl̓ílwətaʔ/Selilwitulh (Tsleil-Waututh) and xʷməθkʷəy̓əm (Musqueam) Nations.